Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Dear Heavenly Father,
What's wrong with me? Have I lost all senses? You know I like him....but do I? I am no longer sure anymore. Maybe it's infatuation. I don't know. It's like I like him but I don't. Sigh. What am I to do? Lord, help me. Is this another one of your test to see my level of love for You or is it the test to see if we are meant to be? I am so confused. It seems like I'm back to square one. Sigh...plenty of that. I'm in the midst of confusion and uncertainty that I find something else to think about and apparently I don't have anything to think about. I know Ah Pa. What I should be really doing. I should be consulting You instead of other stuff. Lord, I thank You that even though I am so far away, You will always draw me back to Your arms. No matter what. I remember lots of incidents when You did that and I love it. But I don't like what I am doing with my relationship with You and You know me too well that I won't do anything about it. It's like a heartbeat going haywire. Oh Lord, what am I to do. I know what You will say. Change of character. Stop being lazy. Yes Ah Pa. I think it's time You send one of Your angels-in-disguise. Haha...oh ya. Thanks for the post for being treasurer of NPCF English side. You know how I have doubts. I wonder if I would be chosen if buddy didn't want to do it. I wonder why didn't I get a post before that. Sigh. Me being me. I guess it all shows in the past. How I am a leader to the world but not to among those who serves You. Maybe it is because of the kind of relationship as well as my knowledge of You. Maybe. I don't know. Lord, but all I am asking now is that question. Is it to be or not to be. I really want to know. I don't want to end up like before. Thank You Lord for listening. I love You. :)
Amen.
G.L.U.E.
Labels: doubts, questions, relationship
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Dear Heavenly Father,
What's wrong with me? Have I lost all senses? You know I like him....but do I? I am no longer sure anymore. Maybe it's infatuation. I don't know. It's like I like him but I don't. Sigh. What am I to do? Lord, help me. Is this another one of your test to see my level of love for You or is it the test to see if we are meant to be? I am so confused. It seems like I'm back to square one. Sigh...plenty of that. I'm in the midst of confusion and uncertainty that I find something else to think about and apparently I don't have anything to think about. I know Ah Pa. What I should be really doing. I should be consulting You instead of other stuff. Lord, I thank You that even though I am so far away, You will always draw me back to Your arms. No matter what. I remember lots of incidents when You did that and I love it. But I don't like what I am doing with my relationship with You and You know me too well that I won't do anything about it. It's like a heartbeat going haywire. Oh Lord, what am I to do. I know what You will say. Change of character. Stop being lazy. Yes Ah Pa. I think it's time You send one of Your angels-in-disguise. Haha...oh ya. Thanks for the post for being treasurer of NPCF English side. You know how I have doubts. I wonder if I would be chosen if buddy didn't want to do it. I wonder why didn't I get a post before that. Sigh. Me being me. I guess it all shows in the past. How I am a leader to the world but not to among those who serves You. Maybe it is because of the kind of relationship as well as my knowledge of You. Maybe. I don't know. Lord, but all I am asking now is that question. Is it to be or not to be. I really want to know. I don't want to end up like before. Thank You Lord for listening. I love You. :)
Amen.
G.L.U.E.
Labels: doubts, questions, relationship
